Monday, 12 January 2009
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Mental Monday
It has been strangely quiet around here today. I am still on my "only positive thoughts in and only positive words out" kick. One thing I am positive about; I am going to do serious harm to that child if he doesn't get in line soon.
Whitney and I had a lovely time this afternoon. She decided it would be fun to help me cook dinner. I loved every second of it because it gave us a chance to spend some quality time together. That girl is becoming an amazing young woman and I am so proud to be her mother. I love spending time with her, she is so funny.
We are in the process of seriously starting to look for another house. Our landlords have thus far been unsuccessful in their attempts to refinance the house and I want a plan in place in case things turn ugly quickly. For all the talks of bailing out the homeowners, it is just not happening. The banks are foreclosing and taking the loss only to turn around and sale it at a reduced rate. Good for them, but bad for those that are unfortunate victims. (Um, us.) I have thought about contacting the bank directly and seeing if they would be willing to work with us when the time comes, but I am still not positive this is where I want to make my home for the next twenty years. I love the property, but the land is on the side of the mountain and there is not a ton of useable area. To pay taxes on property that is more than three fourths mountain is not making a ton of sense. Renting it has been awesome, but to purchase it; well, not so sure.
I am gearing up for our trip home in May. Garrett's graduation falls the day after my birthday, so I will be spending my first birthday in more than seven years at home. I must say I am excited. This will be Matt's first real trip back with me and I can't wait to make him eat at all my favorite restaurants. Spaghetti Warehouse...here I come. Nate; my ex; has offered to have us stay at his house for the week. I am not sure how Matt will feel about that, but it would sure save on hotel costs. He is never there anyway; he stays with his girlfriend most nights. I adore his mom and she lives on the same property, so I don't see a big problem.
I find myself in a really good spot right now. I am focused on making some positive changes and I can see the good it is doing for the kids. Caleb is much more acceptable to changes in his routine and Emily is always just an angel. The other kids are reacting positively too. I am starting to see everyones attitude just a bit less on edge and I am hoping that this continues. Yes, I am still having issues with Josh. That is something that no amount of positive changes is going to help. Therapy is what is needed and I am hoping to get that going soon. The good thing is my reactions have changed and I am at peace.
Matt is still not sure how to respond to me at times. He is so accustomed to me being in a high level of stress that he is often taken aback at my calm reactions. Oh, I have my moments, but I have them alone so that it is not an issue in the house. I find my moments coming less and less though, so something must be working.
So for now that is what is going on in Ange land. Have a wonderful evening and an even better Tuesday!
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Comments (11)
I need to work on being calm with my reactions!!! Where do you live? And how old will you be on your birthday :o)
@AbsolutelyNormalChaos61308@xanga - I live in San Diego now. I have been here for the past seven years. I was born and raised in East Texas, so I am going home to Dallas for a week. We are actually heading to Arkansas for my sons graduation, but I am flying in to visit my mom first in Dallas.
As for my age...I am old enough to have a child graduating high school. I will swear I had him when I was only twelve though. LOL
Ugh, I will be turning 21 for the nineteenth time this year. At least I think it is the nineteenth time. I am horrible at math.
I hear about all the bail outs and stuff up here in Canada, sorry you guys are going through all that. It is so good that you are making positive changes in your life. I have to start doing the same because I find myself getting upset over such little stuff all the time and that is not good for my children. I am 7 months pregnant with our third child, my daughter is a monkey on uppers and my redheaded son is 2. Enough said. Luckily my husband has been an absoulte sweetheart and helping out so much...chores, kids, providing for the family and even feeding the cat. When he has enough I tell him to go play world of warcraft and kill things. ha ha . I know how it feels to rent....it sucks. We love the property we are on but the house does need some work. Full basement which gets really cold in the winter. Anyway...you are in my thoughts and I pray everything works out for you. Have a happy birthday.
@gwacemom - haha. well that would mean you're turning the big 4-0, lady ;o) And you talked about the mountains you live in so I was just wondering which are you lived in. That's awesome. I love the mountains. :o)
@AbsolutelyNormalChaos61308@xanga - Darn, you are good at math. Yes, we live in a beautiful area. We are twenty minutes from the beach, but also live on the side of a small mountain. I never knew that San Diego had mountains until I moved here. I was never that good at geography. LOL
I always thought of San Diego as just a beach town, but it is so much more. Where do you guys live?
We live in Indianapolis. The Colts coach just retired today so it's been a sad day! LOL. That's awesome that you guys live so close to the beach!!! I'm sure that is fun for ALLLLL the kids :o)
@AbsolutelyNormalChaos61308@xanga - Oh wow, I hadn't heard he retired. My Chargers lost the playoff game yesterday so we are all in mourning as well. LOL
The beach is great, we just don't get there near as often as I would like. During the summer it is crazy with all the tourist, but it is great all the rest of the year. Trying to keep up with them all sometimes makes me crazy. Caleb, the almost four year old, seems to forget that he can't swim and heads out way too far. Emily loves to play in the sand, but I have to make sure she doesn't eat any.
"One thing I am positive about; I am going to do serious harm to that child if he doesn't get in line soon. "
This made me laugh!!!
I truly need to take a lesson from you. My temper is just blaring and its ridiculous.
@sassi95@xanga - So glad I gave you a laugh. Honestly, I would be lost without some humor in my life. My temper was much the same way. I am a work in progress right now. I will let you know how it goes.
thats awesome that you're mastering the calm reactions. I've been losin gmy cool ALOT lately...and I really need tow ork on it. I know its stress, so I just need to redirect it when i feel me losing it. You're inspired me.....any tips you can give me?
Im so glad things are going well! Its pretty cool that it is starting to rub off on everyone else!!